"I am ready, what exactly does that mean? It means I am ready for everything happening, the good, the bad, everything! I strongly believe that there are some AMAZING things coming in the near future and I can’t wait to see those things manifest!"
When the endless applications and cover letters yielded no results, it felt like a personal failure. I was stripped of the formulaic success granted by an education system that rewards standardized learning and eager-to-please students. Graduation meant coming to terms with my identity outside of this padded structure, but that realization has been intensified by the instability of the past few months.
“Where am I? I am in the present, but I’m dreaming of the future. I’m manifesting. I’m not only working out my body, but I’m working out my soul too. I’m making sure that I constantly feed myself the tools to wake up everyday just as joyous."
Since this new way of living started a few months ago, I noticed that a lot of influencers and motivators saw quarantine as an opportunity to motivate people by way of guilt. I saw posts and videos of influencers saying things like, “If you don’t come out of quarantine with a new skill or new stream of income you’ve wasted your time. No Excuses.” And, although I see the logic behind this train of thought, I emphatically disagree with the approach.
“I am here, present, living, learning, and imperfect but appreciating the beauty of all that comes with being William. How did I get here? Glad you asked. Let me explain. I thought I had it all figured out until what I figured all ran out. Coming off one of the toughest years of my life I forced myself to look in the mirror and not recognizing who I was I said the words that I feared for so long."